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Today - 400

pretty much one of the gayest sessions in a long time ...

run like 800$ below ev ...
At the same time i am angry about myself again ...

session started - 430 pretty fast.
I made it back with discipline and good poker to + 80$ for the day.
well but then the last 40 minutes i lose 5BI all due to stupid suckout shit ...
i should have fucking quit 40 minutes ago ...
Well i never knew when to quit in my whole poker carrer and i guess will never learn...

Well in my current life situation it seems poker doenst have a real place anymore.
Overall it also seems that i just fail at poker ...
I lack certain skills ( mainly calmness and discipline in doing boring things) that are necessary to succeed

I ve played for ~ 2 years now and never made it past NL100 ....
I made a total of ~ + 4200$ overall profits in this 2 years ... which is a sign of gigantic failure itself.
I have had great temporary results ( Like + 3200$ in 16days of Nl100Hu or 3 months of +1500$ at Nl50 6max) but always ended up spewing shit away in the end ...

The last 3 months i was about breakeven simply due to tilt problems , greed and lack of time.
I always started about + 700$ or so and ended like + 100$ ....

Now with University , MMA and new Girlfriend i simply dont have any motivation to put more effort into poker at all.
I just feel like i dont have motivation for that stupic card game anymore where shit liek this
http://www.liquidpoker.net/h/712078
happens over and over again.

I will grind just enough money every month to be able to pay some shit and then wont play any pokerz for the rest of the months
+ i will insta cashout all profits > 200$


GL All
cya

I will still lurk here ofc

Dont know but i am sitting here and just think i have better things to do in Life than to try getting good at this stupid game
when i simply am not made of material for a poker grinder.

GG

LordAD85 goes to Showdown more frequently than 99.4% of the population at $0.5/$1 NL Hold'Em (2 max).
sample 10 K hands of tableratings Nl100 HU + 8,7BB/100

well i decided to play some NL100 Hu again for the next months since i dont have time for 6max grind at all.
So i was curious to check my PS stats at tableratings

I know they are not 100% accurate but this really surprised me a lot

rofl

lol fuck why does a day only have 24h
Thats not enought to do all the things i have to do

I didnt even manage to play any poker at all the last 5 days simply cause i had absolutely zero time to play.
MMA , lots of University stuff, new Girlfriend ( worked out pretty well with the girl from last blog)

time shedule is so sick ...

I need a 36h day or quit one of the above in order to play any poker >-<

fml